I Want to Die but I Still Want to Eat Tteokbokki

THE PHENOMENAL INTERNATIONAL BESTSELLER | TRANSLATED BY INTERNATIONAL BOOKER SHORTLISTEE ANTON HUR'Will strike a chord with anyone who feels that their public life is at odds with how they really feel inside.' RedPSYCHIATRIST: So how can I help you? ME: I don't know, I'm - what's the word - depressed? Do I have to go into detail? Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her - what to call it? - depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgemental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends; adept at performing the calmness, even ease, her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting, overwhelming, and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a desire for her favourite street food, the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like? Recording her conversations with her psychiatrist over 12 weeks, Baek begins to disentangle the feedback loops, knee-jerk reactions and harmful behaviours that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir, part self-help book, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a book to keep close and to reach for in times of darkness.I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki comes in three different colours; the colour you receive will be chosen at random (lib)

The sequel to the Sunday Times-bestselling South Korean therapy memoir, translated by International Booker Prize-shortlisted Anton Hur When Baek Sehee started recording her sessions with her psychiatrist, her hope was to create a reference for herself. She never imagined she would reach so many people, especially young people, with her reflections. I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki became a runaway bestseller in South Korea, Indonesia, and the U.S., and reached a community of readers who appreciated depression and anxiety being discussed with such intimacy. Baek's struggle with dysthymia continues in I Want to Die but I Still Want to Eat Tteokbokki. And healing is a difficult process; the inner conflict she experiences in treatment becomes more complex, more challenging. With this second book, Baek Sehee reaches out to hold the hands of all those for whom grappling with everyday despair is part of a lifelong project, part of the journey. (lib)

_______________THE PHENOMENAL KOREAN BESTSELLERTRANSLATED BY INTERNATIONAL BOOKER SHORTLISTEE ANTON HUR'Will strike a chord with anyone who feels that their public life is at odds with how they really feel inside.' - RedPSYCHIATRIST: So how can I help you? ME: I don't know, I'm - what's the word - depressed? Do I have to go into detail? Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her - what to call it? - depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgemental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends; adept at performing the calmness, even ease, her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting, overwhelming, and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a desire for her favourite street food, the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like? Recording her dialogues with her psychiatrist over a 12-week period, Baek begins to disentangle the feedback loops, knee-jerk reactions and harmful behaviours that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir, part self-help book, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a book to keep close and to reach for in times of darkness. (lib)

Ein Buch, das man in Zeiten der Dunkelheit zur Hand nehmen sollte Baek Sehee ist eine erfolgreiche junge Angestellte in der Social-Media-Abteilung eines großen Verlagshauses. Doch trotz ihrer Erfolge fühlt sie sich ständig niedergedrückt, ängstlich, zweifelt an sich selbst und urteilt über andere. Bei der Arbeit und im Freundeskreis kann sie ihre Gefühle gut verbergen; sie ist geübt darin, die Gelassenheit und Leichtigkeit auszustrahlen, die das Leben ihr abverlangt. Aber diese Fassade aufrechtzuerhalten ist unfassbar anstrengend und hindert sie daran, tiefe Beziehungen einzugehen. Zugleich: Wenn doch alles so hoffnungslos erscheint, warum hat Baek dann dennoch immer wieder Lust auf ihr Lieblingsstraßenessen, den scharfen, würzigen Reiskuchen Tteokbokki? Baek fragt sich, ob mehr dahintersteckt, und sie entschließt sich, einen Psychologen aufzusuchen. Kann sie aus dem Kreislauf ihres selbstzerstörerischen Verhaltens ausbrechen?  Indem sie ihre Gespräche mit ihrem Psychologen über einen Zeitraum von 12 Wochen aufzeichnet, beginnt Baek, die Rückkopplungsschleifen, Kurzschlussreaktionen und selbstschädigenden Verhaltensweisen zu entwirren, die sie gefangen halten. «Ich will sterben, aber Tteokbokki essen will ich auch» ist ein Buch, das man in Zeiten der Dunkelheit zur Hand nehmen sollte. (lib)